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Oh my gosh, I am such a wuss. I don’t think I can do this

Posted on November 29, 2012 | 19 comments

Have you ever written something, thought it was great, but had second thoughts? Ugh. I am soooo there right now.

I’ve mentioned a few times that I’m working on a Paranormal called Une Variante. I am a Fantasy writer at heart, but I like to stretch myself. My first publication (Last Winter Red) is a Dystopian, and my second and third publications are contemporary “Sweet” Romances.

So why the second thoughts about Une Variante? Well, the problem is that there is a heat rating. It’s not kinky or anything, but there is definitely and “open door” to the bedroom.

Having always “faded to black” in the past, I am understandably nervous about this. I have two people lined up to do a full beta on Une Variante as soon as it is complete. I’ve asked them because one looks for open door romances for her recreational reading, and the second is a writer of open door (and far worse kinkier stuff).

That aside….. Today, I sent the first ten pages to my local critique group. You know what I did?

**blush**

I CENSORED MYSELF. [Smacks head on desk]

What am I doing? Ugh. I just couldn’t send it out in its “True glory”.

Now, part of the problem is that the word count would have dropped them right in the middle of “the scene”. I didn’t want my critique session to be just “about that”, and I was afraid it would deter from what I really wanted … which was a critique of the beginning.

I considered asking if anyone would find it offensive, and just send “the scene” to people who wanted to read it… but I wussed about that too.

I gotta admit that I also didn’t want to look into the eyes of people after them just having read “that”. Ugh… I am such a wuss.

Part of me is hoping that the Romance Reader and Erotica Writer tell me that the heat scene stinks, because that would give me an excuse to fade it to black.

[smacking myself again]

Have you ever had second thoughts about something you’ve written?